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Is this how happiness feels like?

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I am drowning. There are days when I feel otherwise; too heavy for this world to bear, too light for human attachments, forever floating near the precipice of No-Man’s-Land. But today, I am drowning. Today is one of those days when I am not accepted in my own city, when the demons who made my bed try to drive me away. When the waters of memories pull me in with all its might. Today, is one of those days when I do not try to swim back up to the surface but let the water take control. Is this how happiness feels like? I had always imagined happiness to feel like floating in air. To be so detached from your body that you forget that happiness was within you all this time, you did not have to leave yourself and go in search for it. Flying, yes. Not drowning. Drowning was for grief. So, I shut my eyes. I do not let the waters get me; I do not want to know the purpose of these waters. Be it happiness or grief, I will not feel it if I do not know it. Just as I was ready to hit the rock ...
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The Night

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  It was one of those dark and eerie November nights; rainwater pierced through the heavily hanging clouds. Along the dark paths of the alleyway stood Sam- completely drenched from head to toe, the precipitation sticking his shiny blonde hair to his forehead. Large shadows under his eyes seemed to have become even darker covering the radiance it once possessed. The strong stench of the nearby sewage was unbearable; though not for him, as the unendurable smell of blood did not seem to let go. Blood! Holding in his right hand was a beautiful dagger studded with exquisite gems pointing downwards, blood dripping from its razorlike blade. His knuckles turned white with the immense strength he applied to the dagger. All his sensations of dropping the dagger perished because of the extreme anger he felt for himself. He felt himself to be completely hollow and deserted just like the houses he was surrounded by. The sky was getting darker and so was his soul, blinking streetlight abov...
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A Discarded Life

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                                                               The man walked with his back hunched and eyes squinting, struggling to pave his own path for himself; head protruding to the front, angled in an extremely uncomfortable position and with an inexplicably large gap between his legs trying to balance himself, as if his world had split open in the center and he was walking with his legs on each end of the world unable to leave either of them.                                                                    _  It was one of those cold and dry early mornings in the capital of India. Everything around was unclear, dense fog enveloped the city cag...
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Carpe Diem: Living in the here and now

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                                          Life may seem pretty stressful at time, especially when you are a coming of age adult squished between relationships, goals, mental health, physical health, grades, interests, homework, the dog that chases you every time you get off a bus at the same spot, the expensive jeans you got stained, the things you did yesterday, the day before yesterday, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and so continues the list but never ends. However the things we ignore, things that had made us happy for just a moment- like that one time the dog did not chase you, the time when you had the perfect grades, when you successfully played the tune on your guitar which you had been practicing for a week, the little kid who smiled at you when you helped him with the balloon that got stuck on the wind shield of a car- are the situations that go discreetly unnoticed as th...
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